Letters to Crushes.

I love letters to crushes.  It's a website that you can submit anonymous love letters to your crushes.  I read it in my google reader and secretly wish my crush would write one to me.  Most of the time the letters are heartwarming... but this one is the sweetest by far--a definite MUST-READ!

petite girl.

seeing you this morning was like being on cloud 9. i’ve missed you so much. when am i going to stop being so stupid and just come right out and say i love you while we’re flipping pancakes? i’m tired of being afraid. i’m tired of being introduced as your ‘best friend.’ change that to ‘boyfriend’ and next time we can have waffles instead of pancakes.

because you like waffles better.

i almost told you how i felt this morning. you were drinking pineapple juice and doing the dishes. instead i just asked you to be my date for my cousin’s wedding. of course you said yes. of course you don’t think it’s a real date. and of course i ruined the moment by telling some cheesy joke about dishwater and politics.

but you laughed.

so it was worth it.

breakfast tomorrow will be different. i promise. i’ll stop being a coward. I WILL BE BRAVE. and i will ask you out. for real. i won’t write you silly letters on this website. i will write real letters. and i’ll leave them in your coffee mug. because i’m not satisfied anymore. i’m not. i’m not. i’m not.

i want to be more to you than what i am.

i love you. you’re my best friend. you’ve been my best friend since we were 15 years old. i love all of you. i love the way you don’t mind my crazy bed-head in the mornings when you come over. or how you say “photograph” wrong. the pretty little mole on your left wrist. i love that you always wear your slippers to the grocery store. i love that you know what i’m thinking.

i love you.

i want to marry you.

i decided that the moment i met you in high school. i decided you would be my wife. and eating breakfast with you as friends for the past 7 years has made me want that even more.

but first i just have to ask you out for real.

i feel like throwing up.

i can’t even imagine proposing to you.

i need to take this one step at a time. i need to learn not to joke at important conversation points. like discussions over dating.

and i need to find something to wear to that wedding tomorrow.

— tall boy

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how sweet is that!!!

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Strange.

I think it's strange when brides close their eyes in their bridal portraits... it's one thing to do it if the photographer asks her to. It's part of his vision.. but when brides do it on their own I think it's weird. Do you want to look like you were sleeping? I'm just not sure why brides do the things they do. Do they think that that's what you're supposed to do? And worse of all... the brides are "asleep" and the groom has no idea and he'll be smiling or giving an expression that doesn't match. strange. Odd. Girls are weird! I've proved it. It's a fact.

:)

Sonics

I have a love-hate relationship with Sonics. Sonic commercials are ALWAYS on. Now, that wouldn't be so bad if there was one close to where I live, but for a long time I had no idea even where the closest one was! Four years ago when I found out there was one near Davis (about an hour and half north of here), I tried it for the first time... and it was as delicious as it looked on tv. I instantly fell in love with the limeades and tots. yum! That was the first time I ate at Sonics. The second time I ate at Sonics was five months ago in El Paso, Texas. Yeah... that just shows you how accessible Sonics is to me.

Finally a Sonics was built in Gilroy which is an hour and half south of where I live, but near the outlet mall... which gave me more of a reason to go as opposed to the other one near Davis (which is out in the middle of no where). Needless to say, it was not until a Sonics was built in Hayward (about twenty minutes away) that I finally ate at Sonics for my THIRD time.

Glorious!

(p.s. I used to have similar experiences with Walmart. We'd always get Walmart ads in the newspaper, and I used to think... "What's Walmart? Where are those things? Why haven't I ever seen one before?")