As my friend likes to remind me, there is never a reason to freak out. Just accept the lows of life as part of God's plan. If things are meant to be, they will be. If not, continue to focus on the many wonderful things in life. So that's what I will be doing over the next couple of days. You would think that after everything in my life that I've been through I would have this anti-freak-out-mechanism, but I don't. I wonder how such insignificant occurrences can chance circumstances so drastically. I'll never know.