I watched "So You Think You Can Dance" the other night and was super inspired by Ellenore and Ryan's dance to "Your Ex-Lover Is Dead" by Stars. I'm just sitting here in the terminal. Five hours later from when I moved to the uber quiet and safe Observation Deck. Seven hours later than when I arrive at the airport. Nine hours after I left my friend's house to get to the airport. Thirteen hours after I wandered the streets of Georgetown... and so on. This has been a long week, and although I can't believe I've been gone for a week, with nearly a week of traveling to go, with only one week at home until I travel to Thailand/Cambodia, then three weeks over there, I wouldn't trade these experiences for anything.
God has blessed me in so many ways. I lost some things since college that were so important to me. My freedom. My Love. My job. I still miss it all. I still cry about my losses. I still complain. But through it all, it amazes me that if I lived on my own, was in a relationship and was tied to my career I could have never been blessed by these opportunities. I've met so many people along my journey while I searched for a job, edited in coffee shops, flew in airplanes, went on blind dates, got lost.
If God had said to me, "Meg, if you give me everything important to you, I'll give you the world...." I don't think I would give any of it up for the opportunities I now have. Strange to think, huh? What would you do?
I'm not going to lie. When people say "I wish I could travel", I usually say, "I wish I had a job." TImes when I'm exhausted or my feet are sore or I miss my bed, I can't believe I'm still traveling. I have my moody moments when I'm stoked for the life I have and other moments I'm crying my heart out because I don't feel like I'm making progress in life. But I guess that's what I love about this blog... I'm using to help me sort through life.
(Back to the song, "Your Ex-Lover Is Dead", my ex-lover (who is dead) is my old life, the one I thought I wanted. Instead, I'm trying to delight in the life God's been leading me through)