Learning to Give Up

 284rest I've (secretly) prided myself on not being a quitter. I've tried a lot of things and failed miserably, but I rarely quit. The problem is... I never quit to a fault. Sometimes I just don't know when to give up and accept defeat. I think that's the biggest struggle I have at the moment.

I keep trying at the same particular thing, failing time and time again, but somehow I'm unable to let it go. I know that God is yelling out to me, "Meg! Give up! Let me take it over for you! You're failing and you most definitely won't ever succeed unless you give up and let me do the work!" And I'll tell you that I know God's promises, but because I'm so fearful of letting go, I think that I haven't fully grasped the truth of that promise deep down in my heart.

At this point, I just don't know how to quit. I don't know how to give it over to God, and that's probably part of the problem why I get so down sometimes. It's easy for me to say, "Oh... If I trust God everything will be ok," or "I have hope in God. I'll be ok."  But truely acting on it is really the hard thing.

So with that... here's the verses that I'm going to focus on for the next couple of weeks.....

Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light. - Matthew 11:28-30

every new day

It's been a rather tumultuous week for me. Every morning I wake up dreading what might go wrong and secretly believing the new day will bring new hope. Can that happen? Sometimes I'm such a contradiction. I must say, though, that my days have been increasingly harder emotionally and spiritually, but at the end of each day I'm filled with a richer sense of who I am and what God's trying to do in my life. I'm thankful for so many things. long talks with friends. travel. God's timing. an unexpected friendship. And, I am often reminded of the good times God's been blessing me with. =)

I am, in such perfect timing, heading to New York in exactly one week!