1315 cambodia When I think about my life I can honestly say that if I died today I would have died happy.  I have few regrets and am so very happy at my core because my driving force in life, the thing that makes me most happy, is to see God in my life.  It's not an easy task, and it's not something that comes naturally.  Nor is it something I'm constantly doing, but it is something I strive for. But truly, my aim is to see God in everything in my life.  To become so in tune with Him that I can learn to love as He loves, to feel compassion and forgiveness as He does.  To see beauty through His eyes in the most unlikely places.  That's the kind of God I believe in.

So sometimes when people ask me how I've been doing since my mom passed away, I have a difficult time finding an answer.  On one hand I still feel lost.  Three months have already passed, yet I still can't imagine living the rest of my life without her.  It feels as if the mourning will never end.  I feel myself constantly slipping in and out of dark bouts of deep sadness.  But on the other hand I remember that my mother is no longer suffering.  I remember how much good has come from her life and her passing.  I see how I've become stronger because I've clung to God during this time.  I see the doors God's opened.  I've felt such an overwhelming sense of thanks for the people, encouragement and experiences He's given me since.  I've learned that it is possible, and even okay, to feel such conflicting emotions all the time.  And even when I weigh both sides, the sadness and the hope, I find that my faith in God wins out.  I know that as long as God is my constant and I seek to find God in my experiences I always come out filled with a sense of that true peace that passes all understanding.


(The picture above is from my April 2013 trip to Siem Reap, Cambodia.)

cambodia | the market

It's been several months since I visited Cambodia, but I have yet to share some of my favorite shots of the trip (back in April). One of my favorite activities when visiting another country is shopping at a local market. Not only do I enjoy the haggling and shopping, but I find it's an excellent place to see the locals and get a feel for the town.  When I'm shooting, I enjoy capturing the feel of the country. 1310 cambodia night market01

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cambodia | good bye for now.

I've been in Phnom Penh for the past couple of days, and I'm sad to say my Cambodia trip is coming to end.  Cambodia has such a special place in my heart.  I couldn't tell you in words.  Maybe it's because on my first trip I met so many of my dear friends.  Or maybe it's because the people of Cambodia have big hearts.  Or maybe it's because my dear tuk tuk driver, Mr. Sith, bought me and my parents (yes, my parents) gifts.  Cambodia is been good for my soul.  I'm sad I'm heading out tomorrow. But tonight is my last night with Richelle.  So it's on.  Time to eat Chinese food (yes, Chinese food.) lol.  Then tomorrow she and I travel back in time!

(And because posts are more interesting with pictures, the one above is in Angkor Wat. Asian tourists always complete a picture.)

cambodia | beng mealea

By the time I actually arrived in Cambodia, I had been traveling for five days (traveling back from New York, trying to travel but missing my flight and the three days of flights to get to Cambodia).  To arrive in Cambodia I just felt like I was home.  Everything, although foreign, was still somehow familiar.  This is my second time visiting Cambodia, but it's changed so much since three years ago when I last visited.  Cambodia is adjusting to foreign tourists, and somehow it's losing its charm that I first fell in love with three years ago. On my first full day in Cambodia, Richelle and I went to Beng Mealea about two hours northeast by tuk tuk of Siem Reap where we're staying.  I must say, Beng Mealea is freakin awesome.  It's like a juggle gym and the temple in Tomb Raider (Ta Prohm) combined.  You can climb through the ruins or walk on boardwalks through and above the ruins.  I loved it.

RPTE 41: Wowzas!

Raddest Photo Trip Ever Day 16: Siem Reap, Cambodia

Boy. It's been more than a month, and I haven't finished posting pictures of my Thailand/Cambodia trip. I'm on day 16 and there were a total of 19 days! On this particular day in Camodia, our tuk-tuk drivers took us to two interesting spots they chose for us. The first was a waterfall and some underwater ruins. The second was another temple, but pretty different from the ones we had been seeing.

*Make sure you click on the pictures for a larger view.

One of the best parts of this day was the relaxing and scenic drive.

This one of my favorite pictures. I had to hang off the side of the tuk-tuk to this picture...

Here's the waterfall.

Here's more of that beautiful drive.

Here's the temple we went to. Gorgeous.

A young girl trying to sell us scarves

Here are some cute children trying to make a living.

Look how red the sun is! I didn't process this one.

I got these shots by the night time market.

To see other pictures from other photographers on this trip check these out..... Bobby Earle // Richelle Dante // Erika Lindroth Amy Martin // Katie Lewis