Love

Love.  That's an interesting thing.  When I really need to edit, I listen to a playlist of songs that are loud and upbeat to keep me productive.  The other day I started to listen to this playlist, "Fall into Love", instead and something interesting happened.  I was more productive, and I couldn't stop smiling.  Editing weddings and witnessing two people incredibly in love already makes me smile and so does listening to this playlist, but together I was super smiles all day.  I really love to see people in love.

I compiled the playlist from songs that made me happy, songs I'd fall in love with autumn to.  And actually, ironically, most of the songs are about not being loved.  The theme of unrequited love resonates through many of the lyrics.  "It hurts the longer this goes." "You said you never wanted to date me." "If you ask me how I'm doin I would say I'm doin just fine. I would lie and say that you're not on my mind."  I wonder what that says about me.  I do enjoy witty lyrics and well-written songs.  But is it strange that I'm drawn to these sad lyrical songs?

I'm 27, and I know less about love and relationships as I grow older.  Maybe I was just misinformed when I was younger, but as I get older I realize there's so much I still need to learn about me and life and what love is.  Even love apart from a romantic relationship.  What does it really mean that I love my family or my friends?  Am I loving?  I have head knowledge, but I've been challenging myself recently to put love into action.  My life is full of little quandaries.  I feel so alive nowadays, but at the same time old hurts continue to paralyze certain aspects of my life.  How can that be?  Maybe it's how these songs can have such upbeat melodies with such sad lyrics.  There's that balance I suppose that propels us all through life.

Hmm... I don't think this makes sense anymore.  I'm rambling.  But enjoy the playlist and listen to what I hear when I'm walking around or editing.

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Blue Eyes by Drew Davis The One you Say Goodnight to by Kina Grannis Walking On a Dream by Empire of the Sun Strawberry Swing by Coldplay Kiss Me Slowly by Parachute I Can't Wait by Runner Runner Good life by OneRepublic Not Over You by Gavin DeGraw Stereo Hearts (f. Adam Levine) by Gym Class Heroes Pumped Up Kicks by Foster the People Gonna Get Over You by Sara Bareilles Love Vigilantes by Iron & Wine Rewind by Goldspot Thunder Clatter by Keegan DeWitt Best Days by matt White Love Like This (f. Sean Kingston) by Natasha Bedingfield.

A lovely end.

writing + editing + reformatting + reading + the still, quiet echo of my thoughts.... an absolutely lovely end to a day

Sunday began my third week of traveling. My good spirits have found me in the crisp North Carolina autumn. In two days I'll headd to the city where my heart always returns, New York. Where my friends live. Where I can dress up for an every day excursion. Where I lose myself in coffee shops, back alleys and the rhythm of moving people. The upcoming months bring excitement and projects. I'll be inundated (thank goodness!) with work, and relaxed by fun holiday projects, road trips, a man friend, new nieces and nephews, crafting and the most anticipated.... family time.

I am in love with life.

Squirrel: cute or killer?

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What do you think? I've always thought squirrels were cute.  The other day I was trying to feed one.  I had some pretzels in my purse and proceeded to throw some at this bushy-tailed creature.  I ran out of goodies so the little guy ran away.  I took out my purse and searched for some goodies, and the squirrel came back!  It waited patiently on its hind legs with a "please give me some tasty treats" look on his face.  I was still going through my purse when he jumped on me!  I was so shocked I didn't know what to do.  He kept climbing up my leg.  I tried moving away but he wouldn't get off.  What seemed like minutes later, he finally jumped off and ran to his tree.  

I was shocked this little guy was so fearless to jump on me like that.  My friends were also in shock... as were all the other pedestrians who walked by asking me if that squirrel really had jumped on me.  :)

 

 

first picture from here.  second picture from here.

Day 215: Pumpkin Patch.

The colors of fall are so amazing. Autumn is my favorite season and it never fails to amaze me in beauty. It's so interesting how fall is colored by dying plants, but yet those browns, reds, yellows and oranges are so brilliant... more brilliant than the greens and colors of spring. I love fall. And aren't the colors of these pumpkins just the perfect color? 329day215